[ If Yuji met Gojo in a similar state to how he met Nanami, Namami can only envision tears, stress, a near on panic attack. The boy was a wreck and Nanami doesn't know why. But he can make some guesses, more than Gojo can, and the answer only makes him sick to his stomach. He wishes so desperately then that what he told Gojo was the truth. He had hoped it was, that whatever happened after his death was what he thought — Yuji killing Mahito, the sorcerers rescuing Gojo, the world returning to normal. That isn't the case, clearly.
Nanami leans against the kitchen counter, folding his arms over his chest and gives a sigh. Gojo needs an answer and all Nanami can tell him is the truth. His gaze fixes to the floor for a long moment before he finally speaks. ]
I... don't. [ Looking back up at Gojo, he continues before he can get the ire of the man. ] Not entirely. He didn't tell me much of what happened after we last saw each other, I think he's from further in the future than that night in Shibuya but he said he wasn't ready to talk about it. I didn't press him on that.
[ But then the obvious question is — what does Nanami know then? Because clearly he knows more than he initially told Gojo. It all doesn't make sense unless Nanami confesses the truth. There's one missing piece of information here and Nanami knows what it is. He just... doesn't want to talk about it.
Part of him is tempted to figure out a way to avoid confessing the truth again. But that's his cowardice speaking and he staunchly refuses to give in to it again. ]
I lied to you, Gojo-san. About what happened in Shibuya and why I'm here at the hotel. The truth is I don't know how things ended in Shibuya, I don't know if they recovered the prison realm from Kenjaku. I don't know anything past a certain point because...
[ He pauses. He doesn't want to say it. He really, really does not want to say it. But it has to be done, he has to rip the band-aid off. He takes a breath, he looks straight at Gojo, and he says it. ]
Because I died. Itadori saw it happen. Mahito, the patchwork curse, killed me. I cannot leave the hotel because there is nowhere for me to go now, unless I want to pass on to the afterlife. Whatever Itadori has seen, the trauma he's gone through, I only know part of it. I am part of it. When we talked, he blamed himself for my death but it's not true. The only person who can be blamed for my death is myself.
[ Nanami stands up straight then, arms at his side as he faces Gojo and then, a moment later, he is bowing to him. ]
I am sorry, Gojo-san. For lying to you. For failing you. For failing Itadori.
[ Nanami has never bowed like this to Gojo before. Never. ]
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Nanami leans against the kitchen counter, folding his arms over his chest and gives a sigh. Gojo needs an answer and all Nanami can tell him is the truth. His gaze fixes to the floor for a long moment before he finally speaks. ]
I... don't. [ Looking back up at Gojo, he continues before he can get the ire of the man. ] Not entirely. He didn't tell me much of what happened after we last saw each other, I think he's from further in the future than that night in Shibuya but he said he wasn't ready to talk about it. I didn't press him on that.
[ But then the obvious question is — what does Nanami know then? Because clearly he knows more than he initially told Gojo. It all doesn't make sense unless Nanami confesses the truth. There's one missing piece of information here and Nanami knows what it is. He just... doesn't want to talk about it.
Part of him is tempted to figure out a way to avoid confessing the truth again. But that's his cowardice speaking and he staunchly refuses to give in to it again. ]
I lied to you, Gojo-san. About what happened in Shibuya and why I'm here at the hotel. The truth is I don't know how things ended in Shibuya, I don't know if they recovered the prison realm from Kenjaku. I don't know anything past a certain point because...
[ He pauses. He doesn't want to say it. He really, really does not want to say it. But it has to be done, he has to rip the band-aid off. He takes a breath, he looks straight at Gojo, and he says it. ]
Because I died. Itadori saw it happen. Mahito, the patchwork curse, killed me. I cannot leave the hotel because there is nowhere for me to go now, unless I want to pass on to the afterlife. Whatever Itadori has seen, the trauma he's gone through, I only know part of it. I am part of it. When we talked, he blamed himself for my death but it's not true. The only person who can be blamed for my death is myself.
[ Nanami stands up straight then, arms at his side as he faces Gojo and then, a moment later, he is bowing to him. ]
I am sorry, Gojo-san. For lying to you. For failing you. For failing Itadori.
[ Nanami has never bowed like this to Gojo before. Never. ]