[ The thing is, to Yuji, the words Nanami left him with were never a curse. It was never something that made him feel as though he was burdened - it was the opposite. When Todo had come and shaken him from his sadness and grief and reminded him of what they were, it was Nanami and his words that gave Yuji the strength to fight on. Maybe that's what he should be saying here, confessing to Nanami that he is stronger now, that he keeps getting stronger, but that's not what this moment is about.
Yuji loves him. It's been months since Nanami was taken from them all in Shibuya, Christmas echoing around them as they prepared to fight Sukuna, and Yuji never forgot him. It was something that kept him going, propelled him, despite his failures, despite his losses: Nanami was there, in the back of his mind, as a source of strength and courage for him. How is he meant to express that to him without becoming more of a burden for him?
Yuji doesn't want to be a curse either, even if he's barely human these days. ]
Happier here.
[ He understands.
Yuji would be happier if he died and came here for the rest of his life. If he gave it his all and lost his life, at least he could say he tried. At least he could say it had some meaning. If he was allowed to come here after that and find happiness with Nanami, with Gojo and all his new friends... He can't be blamed for wanting that. But it's all a childish fantasy, because he has to go back eventually. Just like Gojo-sensei; he can't stay here forever.
Shaking his head, he grips Nanami a little tighter - enough to hurt if he isn't careful with his strength. He doesn't want to let go, to admit that he'll have to leave this place again, leave Nanami behind for a second time. He's not strong enough right now. ]
Will you wait for me? If I have to go back... Will you be here when I return too?
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Yuji loves him. It's been months since Nanami was taken from them all in Shibuya, Christmas echoing around them as they prepared to fight Sukuna, and Yuji never forgot him. It was something that kept him going, propelled him, despite his failures, despite his losses: Nanami was there, in the back of his mind, as a source of strength and courage for him. How is he meant to express that to him without becoming more of a burden for him?
Yuji doesn't want to be a curse either, even if he's barely human these days. ]
Happier here.
[ He understands.
Yuji would be happier if he died and came here for the rest of his life. If he gave it his all and lost his life, at least he could say he tried. At least he could say it had some meaning. If he was allowed to come here after that and find happiness with Nanami, with Gojo and all his new friends... He can't be blamed for wanting that. But it's all a childish fantasy, because he has to go back eventually. Just like Gojo-sensei; he can't stay here forever.
Shaking his head, he grips Nanami a little tighter - enough to hurt if he isn't careful with his strength. He doesn't want to let go, to admit that he'll have to leave this place again, leave Nanami behind for a second time. He's not strong enough right now. ]
Will you wait for me? If I have to go back... Will you be here when I return too?
[ Maybe it's not fair to ask, but... ]